Building the Momentum
Friday, June 28, 2013
Uncle O' dropped by @2:55 PM
I don't know whether to say it's fortunate or not, but June's ending soon. Again, time just flies by so fast when you're having fun. March felt like a few days ago, and now July's approaching.
Anyway, I think I have fully acclimatised back to the civilian world already, since March? It's just so easy to be back a civilian but so tough to get used to NS. Now, I just feel like NS has never really happened before and things just continued from where civilian me left off from 2011. Now's 1 month left to the start of school, new environment, new people, new stuff and new inspirations. Excited much, curious about the future but there's this little part of me who wishes not to go on because of the luxury of life I am enjoying now. What to do right? Life goes on. Enjoy while you can!
The next few years of my life seems planned out already, the rough plan minus the little details within, waiting for me to fill it in. Whatever it would be, I know it all depends on me and how I shape my future. Now, I believe it's time for me to slowly adapt to the new journey I am going to embark on, before I turn mouldy in the current holidays I have.
Live and Learn!
Fight the Haze
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Uncle O' dropped by @4:12 PM
Okay, so now the air in Singapore ain't that clear and fresh. I start to see people having nose irritations while travelling. Seems like clean air is a luxury after all. Plus, the weather is not helping with its high temperatures everyday. Even a cold shower at midnight doesn't cool me down, god I hate this.
I guess now's the go-for-orientation-camp phase of my life, and that applies to the other males around my age going university soon. The feeling of going orientation camps seems fun, but all packing and stuff you have do doesn't. While I have not gone for my 1st camp yet, I am feeling the burden from it already. I also came to realise that maroon shirts ain't that common after all. Nice discovery, but it took a toll on my legs. Gosh, why did my OG have to change colour from pink to maroon. Either way, both colours aren't that nice on me, though they are cool.
I trying my best everyday to make myself as tired as possible but it doesn't seem to work well. Too much energy in me? Or just my body clock is screwed? It's 410pm now, I'm feeling a little sleepy due to the late night I had yesterday surfing net and watching tv and less than 5 hours of sleep. I shall persist till the night so that I'll be able to turn my body clock around, hopefully.
Alright, that's all.
Walking along a street with no direction
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Uncle O' dropped by @12:32 AM
Somehow, i don't know why these days I fail to reach targets I have made for myself this holidays. It really seems frustrating sometimes when things just don't go the way I want it to be. Since March, my holiday plans have been changing. Found a new direction, and within weeks, motivation dies down and things don't go to plan. As I try to get myself together, a sense of motivation sparks off, but it is short-lived. Why? I really don't get it.
It seems like these holidays, I haven't really achieved anything yet. My plan to build up my english failed terribly. I failed my driving tests and have yet to get my license. I haven't really touch my Math practices despite I have revised the theory, and I know this won't do for math. Chemistry's going okay, since the interest in chemistry kept me going till now, but I have procrastinated my plans to begin university chemistry for a month and a half. I told myself I will learn new biology concepts. Well, I did for a while but ever since I managed to get a copy of biology notes, I haven't touch it at all. Fitness wise, I haven't been running even though I bought myself a new pair of cloudrunner. Seriously, what is wrong with my life???
I don't know why but I have this feeling that my holiday is ruined badly. Very badly by my own hands. My life seems to be just in a mess which I can't pull myself out of all these.
Somehow, sometimes I feel like I really just returned to that "directionless" stage in 2011 before enlistment. This period just seemed to continue from that time I had. It just seems as though NS has never happened to me before. Is this a withdrawal symptom because I have nothing to do now? No focus in life at the moment, too much rest until I get myself lost? I really don't know. I don't want to turn out this way either...
Now, I just really hope that my start of university life won't turn out to be like year 1 in JC. Getting all frustrated, struggling and uncomfortable with life and having thoughts of backing out. I'm just praying for it to be a smooth one, really. The first few months of JC was really bad, and I don't want history to repeat itself again.
I know this sounds stupid but somehow keeping a long hair makes me feel all this at times. Getting a bit pissed off by it already. I don't feel good at all.
